Ohh, tagged me. x.x teehee, that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. >w< Hope my stuff is slightly interesting.. >.>

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2.People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3.Tag six people and post their icons on the same journal.
4.Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5.No tag-backs.

1. If I'm feeling down and draw something, then someone says something like, "That man's face is weird" about a woman I'm drawing, I will crumple it up and throw it away, even if I really like it. Inside I'd break a little. >.>

2. I have really low self esteem. At one point I was convinced I had body dysmorphic disorder, but I'd never get plastic surgery to fix something stupid like my knees (I HATE my knees), so I just learned to live with the things I didn't like about myself. xD
_{When I was younger I always wore long sleeves because I have hairy arms. x.x Even on the hottest days in summer. I was really self-conscious back then, and still am. I don't wear shorts or skirts or stuff like that because I hate my legs.}

3. I'm a little OCD, I think (not for real). I leave my room a mess, but when I have things in front of me they HAVE to be lined up perfectly. If I'm running my hand along the wall or something, it has to go through the corner PERFECTLY or else I get really uncomfortable. And I have this weird thing about making A's out of everything. It's kinda hard to explain... I guess when I see an acute angle I like to make sure I can make an A out of it. I've never told anyone before because it's not serious, like EVERYTHING has to be an A. I'm pretty sure it started in 5th or 6th grade. It's fun though. xD Yes, I'm weird. x.x

4. I never miss anyone, ever. If my parents go on month-long trips I don't miss them, if I go to camp for a few weeks I don't miss my family. I do miss, however, old times. I get nostalgic. For example, I really miss my friends from 5th grade. I also miss the times before school, when I didn't worry about anything at all.

5. I'm fucking lazy. I procrastinate because I'm lazy, I don't do homework because I'm lazy, I don't study because I'm lazy. Honestly, I'd rather sleep all day. Sometimes I don't DRAW because I'm too lazy. I need someone to get up and get my things for me. I've told my brother to so many times that I get in trouble if I ask him now. xD;;

6. I'm pretty sure I'm gaining weight, and not the "oh you're just growing" weight. I constantly tense my stomach muscles so my stomach seems flat, and I've been doing it so long that it's become a habit. I don't feel comfortable when I leave my tummy normal. "Oh, you're thin, you're normal!" No, I'm not, I just don't let you see mah fat.

7. Enough with this depressing shit, let's go to stuff I like. I like walking outside with friends and going to beaches with big waves and really fine, soft sand. I like my hands (which are really big), my feet (which aren't), my eyes, my eyebrows, my lips, and my shoulder blades. I like complements because they help me cope with the things I don't like, and I really appreciate the person more when they do say that. You know that fuzzy warm feeling, right? That's what I get. I'm not praised very much. >.<

8. I'm horrible at giving advice, which probably has to do with my low self-esteem. I don't trust myself to tell people what to do, because I'm afraid they might do the wrong thing because of me. I'm afraid of the guilt I'll feel then, and then the anger they'll feel toward me, and then all the more guilt that will follow. x.x Basically, I'm scared shitless of failure, but it happens all the time to me, so I should be over that fear by now, right? xD

I tag ~kasaiyuri, , , , and two watchers... and . >D

ON ANOTHER NOTE.... I just got Rock Band, can't wait to play it. xD

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